Broken Friendships

Do you ever friend with people who can change in a jiffy after you know them ??..for example..today he or she treat you very nicely then the next day he or she treat you like their enemy or strangers..even scold you when you try to approach them, try to concern about them..

I'm the one who facing the problem right now..not only the friends that I knew for a long time ago, even the newest one also the same...I'm on my holiday now..I know most of my friends they still having classes and busy with their stuffs..when I try to ask them out some day, they never think of it straight away deny my invitation..before this, they say when I return to KL they will go outing with me, this and that..when time comes, everything changed..

I found out something in this life..people who got to know new friends will eventually forgot their old friends..then lost contact with them...how hurt is this..can you imagine it...contact once in a while better than nothing..mine is not...mostly not..moreover, some of them even worst..after losing contact and somehow they need my help they will call me for help..after I helped them, they stop calling me...what you all think I am?..a tool ?..or I can say tissue paper..use then throw..

I love to care about others..who needs help..who in trouble..when I try to be concern, some of them not even appreciate it and let me help them, yet they scold me back being so picky, annoying..if it is so, why at first want me to become your friend, why not just delete the contact and get lost..why make me keep building the sympathy and careness inside myself..or just let me help you, let me have someone to lend my shoulder to, let me be the one you need the most..though is friends..don't have to treat me like a doll which you throw up and down, tear of it hands and legs..dolls do not have feelings..but human do ..I do !

Being good, get bad repay..being bad, get bad repay also...you all complaint didn't do anything but still get bad repay..why not you think carefully how you treat the people around you and how come you did nothing but get bad repay..from now on..do your own business..invite me to outing unless you are sincere to go for outing with me...ask me for help if you are sincerely want me to help you not ditch me after you used me...

don't have to hurt me like that..I'm not a punching bag..I do have a feeling also..I'm trying to be nice with you all..you all treat me like that....don't hurt me anymore..don't....I'm really sincere to become your friend..really really sincere...i didn't mean what at here..just want to let you all know I'm really sincere to be your friends..i have limited friends..this you all know too..I'm apologize to you all what I have done to you all...hope you all forgive me...

Time is gold..life is short....................

Specially post for Ah Teik ..

Friday 24 July 2009..I lost a friend...

From the start, we didn't know each other..though we were in the same class and he was living opposite my house in campus but we didn't talk and intro each other...somehow if not mistaken is in this month: July..we started to get along in many ways..

We only got to know each other for not more than a month...forgot how suddenly we talk to each other alot..actually he had a problem which was he choosen the wrong subject..he found out that himself couldn't cope with biology topics and his favourite is math and physics..

day by day..he told me his problem..and I manage to help him solve some of it..but he still stick to his own decision..24 july..the last day of our term1..and also the last day for him and me..and some other people who are not from Penang..because his flight was on 25 July-Saturday 2pm at Penang..so our Penang friends made a farewell party for him..and I couldn't join them ..sob..

I can still remember the time we met for the last time..is around 5pm on friday..i was busy packing my stuff back to KL..manage to snap only 2 pics with him..


From left : khong liang, teik chee, and me..



From left : wei ho, teik chee, cheun wai, and me..

all of us trying to be happy even it was the last time for us to be together..but he still showing his emo face..anyway..we still had a great time with him within that period..

I would like to say thank you to him..who celebrated my birthday for me..and taught me in physics and mathematics...so sorry I gave you a lot of troubles...made you pissed off..and pawned you too many times in dota match..><..

Hereby wish you all the best in your STPM and study hard..we know you can do it..because you are our 49 friend !! haha..do remember to contact us..I hope we have a day to visit you in Sarawak next time..

Ah Teik..加油 ！！give you a song..friendship forever..

Home Sweet Home..

Yay..all of us in April batch waited for this time to come already for so long..and finally it arrived..!

We finished our first term examination on Friday 24 July..guess what...the first thing all of us went out from the examination hall was holding each other hands and hopping around the place..besides..we wish each other happy holiday too..

I reached home on Saturday around 330pm..I feel so happy once I saw my house haha...its been almost 3 months didn't step in my house..the moment I enter my house, I can still smell the same smell which brought me up in there..every sad, happy, mad and etc moments happen there...

So, this time I came back only for 2 weeks..I will be going back to the "prison" on Sunday 9 august..I thought I will be doing a lot of things when I'm in KL this time but I found out that I have nothing to do..so boring.. everyone studying, I'm the only one on holiday..how sad it is...

More..one of my friends who I didn't meet for a long time going back to uni today..and rarely return to kl anymore..I not even have a proper time with my friend..time is really gold..that's why I keep on rushing when doing something..so I will not miss any single second..and now probably I will not meet my friend for another 2 months..which this will drag me into the missing well...

I have something that clash with my mom schedule..she told my aunt at my hometown, Sitiawan that she will be going back on somewhere around Merdeka day..I told my mom before she and I will be going back to hometown before I go back to my uni..and now she changed her mind..I have to be in the bus for more than 5 hours trip back to uni and with a great load..haizzz.....

I do not know what and how I'm going to spend my holiday time..I wish to go out with friends to cc or somewhere but they are not on holiday now..plus I'm having financial problem also..

people..please date me out !!!..haha...I'm available all the time..please..I don't want to lock myself in my house like in uni again !!..

Min Jing !!

she looks like Korean girl right?? haha..she's the most funniest girl...enjoy the video hahaa

10/7/2009..my 18th birthday..

alright..finally there's a time for me to blog about last friday 10/7 ..because these days busy studying..next week is the final term 1 exam...and this week is study week..i have to brush up and catch up everything...

so, last friday was my birthday..at first, i wish to celebrate my birthday in KL and my parents agree with it..but somehow suddenly they changed their mind..i didn't know what reason..their decision made me feel so sad and i can't do anything..

after my class end, my friends brought me to a restaurant in Sg.Petani..which is a Thai Food restaurant..there were 12 of us include me..so we used 2 cars to fetch everyone there..

colourful drinks..healthy beverages..haha..

Yam seng section..so embarrassing..a proper and high class restaurant let us make until look like a mamak restaurant haha..

this are the food we ordered..the best was the green curry..super spicy and nice ^^ i wish to have another one..

everything became empty within 10 mins...haha..hungry ghost..

hoho..camera section...( left : Nicole , Yean Chen , Sue Ann and Min Jing ) all of them are from Penang and they are closed friends..the funniest and hyperactive reward belongs to Min Jing..haha she always make jokes and everyone will non-stop laughing..

hmmm...lol...( left : Joyce and Daphne ) ..Joyce from local [ Sg.Petani ] and Daphne from Sabah..say cheeseeeeeee...!

one big family...( front left : Nicole, Yean Chen, Sue Ann, Min Jing, Joyce and Daphne ) ( back left : Teik Chi, Chi Chou, Darius, Me, Matthew and Cheus Wai )..all of us are from different states..Sarawak, Sabah, Penang, Kedah, Sg.Petani and KL..

look at the bill...almost RM 200..and the food we ordered so little..its really expensive..

Next stop..we went to Village Mall to have some dessert..actually i thought they bringing me to Secret Recipe to have some cake but ended up in StarBuck ><...coffee as a dessert..swt....ermm..that was my first time drinking Starbuck coffee...I feel so proud and..that drink not so bad la..for me ok ok only haha..it costs around RM 16..

these are the bad gang...they ditched other 5 of us and enjoy their time taking pictures and play games in the StarBuck..other 5 of us finding for them at other places...we thought they went shopping so we went to find them...but they hide in Starbuck...arghhh..i missed the camera section ><>

we went back to uni and the day ends...they bought me 2 slices of cake from Secret Recipe..thx alot..thank you so much...for sacrificing your study time to celebrate for me...i was so happy at first..but then after dinner i received a message...i "collapse"..so hurt...my mood straight away gone...haih...some wish didn't even comes true...so damn sad...there's no more next time to grant that wish anymore..no more..no more.....

btw...thx darius, nicole, yean chen, min jing, sue ann, joyce, daphne, chi chou, cheun wai, teik chi, and matthew ..

there're still some event on saturday..i will post it if i have time...alright its 312am now..gotto go to bed d..tomorrow morning need to wake up early go study room continue study..good night all..

IN RAGE

ARGHHHHHH.....I COULDN'T SLEEPPPPPPPPPPP....

ALREADY 3 MONTHS IN HERE...AND I DON WANT TO REPEAT MY SENTENCE ON AND ON....
IM ALREADY SICK OF IT...


MY ROOMATE STARTED TO WATCH DRAGON BALL SINCE AFTER TUTORIAL TILL NOW!!! 2.15AM !! NON STOP...

I LAZY TO SAY A WORD TO KEEP REMINDING THEM I NEED TO SLEEP NOW PLEASE OFF IT...

IM REALLY SICK OF IT...

STUPID..IDIOTS....



AIMST SUX...REALLY SUX...

out of control..

鲁冰花

天上的星星不说话
地上的娃娃想妈妈
天上的眼睛眨呀眨
妈妈的心呀鲁冰花
家乡的茶园开满花
妈妈的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
碍…
我知道半夜的星星会唱歌
想家的夜晚
它就这样和我一唱一和
我知道午后的清风会唱歌
童年的蝉声
它总是跟风一唱一和
当手中握妆华
心情却变得荒芜
才发现世上一切都会变卦
当青春剩下日记
乌丝就要变成白发
不变的只有那首歌
在心中来回地唱

i found this song in betaserver...a server which made by one student in our hostel and only can find it in hostel connection...

once i turn on this song, my hair on my hand standing right away..and there's a feeling came to me..touch, sad, miss, love....especially towards my mom...suddenly miss her so much..almost burst into tears..

i had done a lot of sins, betray her, make her angry, raise voice when talking to her ..since young till now.. one thing i realized was after i came to uni which located far away from my home, i only know they are so much important for me...miss them so much...from this point, i started to lower my voice when talk to them, do what they ask to do..obey them..

the lyrics are meaningful..read and understand them..you will know what to do next....think wisely...

Note for those who going to leave or already left your family and study at somewhere far away, do always remember and spend your day before you leave them...if not you going to be like me..miss them so much and couldn't control yourselves...

Bad...really bad.......

Haiz......i think i'm the cause of this thing happen..

yesterday, Sunday..time to go back uni..my friends come and fetch me near my uncle there..

on their way and almost reach my uncle place, accident happened...its like playing bumper car..4 cars hit in a row..i didn't know whether is my friend fault or what..he's the last car..his car knock the 3rd one then 3rd one knock the 2nd one last..2nd one knock the first one..funny right??..the most funniest part was...the first one didn't even have any crash but he still report to the police..only his back part has a few scratches..and that scratches can be polished it off within a second...he's making himself into trouble and wasted RM300 for the report..

this is true one..i'm not lying...i feel like i'm the one who causes this thing happen..if i'm not going to alor star..accident will not occur right?

my friend's car...sad..T_T...

we took more than 2 hours in here..they doing it so slow...arghhh...

we went back to uni with using another friend's car..honda..lucky he's more cautious...

Next another HOT news.....AIMST HAVING H1N1 ....believe?..

this is really true..if not mistaken last week..there's a small ambulance entered Aimst and bring a few people..they were suspected suffering from that disease..and what i heard yesterday once i reached Aimst was there are 20++ people have been sent to hospital and there are 5 people in my apartment suffering from H1N1...my friends and i were so shock and didn't know what to do..

So how??.....

god bless me...><

Tired...restless...

FUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHH...wat a tiring day..

today i woke up at 12pm..lol..slept like almost 12 hours..then had my lunch everything and started to do homework around 2pm if not mistaken..

actually i wanted to finish my chemistry first then only mathematics..but then i don't know how to do and don't have referrence book beside me..so i change to math..

do do do do do...do till dinner time..after dinner do do do do do..till 11pm ..XD!! i rejected all invitation from my uncle, his wife, cousin and friends just to finish my homework ..swt...came alor star just to do homework..rather stay in hostel and finish them right??..do you think so? ..but if i stay in hostel and do, i couldn't have so much fun enjoying food while doing homework..some more the food can't get in the hostel..haha

non-stop doing...sit on the chair till my back aching..my ass burning..my shoulder harden..lucky there are food on the table..do math while eating ^^..if my math lecturer, Mr.Rama know us eat when doing math..hmmm!! i think i will be dead hahahaa..

i used up 21 test pad to finish half of the chapter only...so dam wasted..yah i know..but the lecturer said not to divide the page into half..don't be so environmental friendly when doing maths..hahah...

alright..good night guys..my back aching have to rest now..tata

Alor Star..

I came to my uncle house in Alor Star yesterday evening after my tutorial class..

because..all of my chinese roommate they returning to their house and will left me alone in the house..so i decided to follow them to Alor Star..they live in Jitra..somewhere near to my uncle there..

another reason i came to Alor Star is..to relax myself and calm myself down..there are a lot of things happen recently..i couldn't face it..but...i found out i came to Alor Star also do nothing haha..nothing fun i can do except staying in my uncle house online and study..luckily his house is fully air-cond..haha can extinguish the fire burning on my head XD!..

so..yesterday night..my cousin bring me to Alor Star Mall to play snooker...i already told him i didn't know how to play..yet..i know he likes addicted to it ..so i just went and play for fun..

the price here is cheaper than KL..i forgot how long we played..but we just paid RM 9.80 ONLI..cheap right? ..

hahahaa...play for so long..i only managed to enter 2 balls..the rest one my cousin enter..

swt....I'm so noob haha..

hmmm..actually i wanted to watch ice aged 3 very much..i thought my cousin will have this intention same like mine..but he don't like to watch movie..even transformer 2 also haven't watch..Argghhhh......i want to watch ice age T_T...

after the snooker, he drove me to go around Alor Star..he introduced me some places..for example the place where Tunku Abdul Rahman lived, his school SMK Keat Hwa, MRC ( Malaysia Recreation Center ) if i not mistaken and etc...

and at the moment now..i stuck in my uncle house finish my homework and do my studies..exam just around the corner..i can't stop myself from enjoying the life...am i enjoying ? lolx...

alright...tomorrow have to return to uni ..back to the prison !!....see ya guys..

Miss..

我会好好过-李玖哲

你的爱很像泡沫
太轻或太重 都不在手中
我的爱就像天空
太放或太收 你都只是风
你来过却爱上自由 你出走我不问理由

我会好好过 等你再爱我
总有个角落 会让你想起我
我会好好过 等你再爱我
向右或向左
都有我站在这里守候

你留下很多
够我面对寂寞
寂寞不重 纵使爱太弱
我会好好过 等你回头
会看到的一定是我


still...couldn't adapt..already 3 days...

trying my best...

i'm going alor star tomorrow..hopefully can make myself happy and study there..
good night