The end..

77days..

i don't know what to say and what to tell...

i'm out of ideas...

i didn't know what should i do right now...

it's really a sad memory for me...

those sweet moments keep appear in my mind...i had nailed them very well..no one will do as better as me..

but now..its hard for me to pull out all the nails..

i have done a big mistake..

i'm doubt..i'm silly..i'm lonely..i'm sad..

i have to start all over again..adapt back the loner situation..this is the thing i hate to do the most..

but what can i do..i have no choice..unless................i shouldn't have think about it..haiz..

hope you will get someone better than me..not as aunty as me..but is for your own good...everyone cares about you..appreciate yourselves...listen to people advises..

goodbye..

bye kapo, bye puppy...i have to leave now..wonder when will be seing you two or mayb forever not.............................. :( bye..

Saving the ending part..

你的承诺

乌云遮蔽了天空
窗外又是阴雨时候
伞下的恋人中
不再有你我手牵手
一切过了太久
我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
你我的方向盘却向着
相反的彼岸
终点还是分开
告别你我离开之后
这回忆可以保留
当初那美好的感动
你说你记住了
不为彼此难过
过各自的生活
oh baby～
你答应我的我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
不是说好彼此都不再联络
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后你要好好生活
不要想我 也别再哭了
不要想我 也别再～

give me another chance..ending is not a proper solution..i know you don't have the feel anymore but how about me..i know i did lot of mistakes and you gave me chances in a way that i didn't realise anything..i really don't want to separate with you..i really don't want to find another one..i know i'm silly.....we have so many things haven't do together..
1) go genting
2) karaoke
3) ice skating
4) celebrate each other birthday
and more..i will not pressure you will not bind you will not disturb you..will not will not.... accept me back..i'm sorry..making you angry..making you stress..i still remember promises between us..i really want to obey it..i want to obey it till end of our breaths..please ..i'm so so sorry...


you ending it by scolding me, scold scold scold..feel so happy after ending it..don't you have the sad feeling?..don't remember the time we spent our time together at so many places??..laugh, chat and so many thing else..don't you feel wasted?..why don't discuss with me again to solve it..i know i didn't listen to what you said but i really can't figure it out..though i figure it out already, no chances for me..i'm too slow..i'm too dumb..



memories..what about memories..don't you feel want to have it again?..HOW ABOUT KAPO AND PUPPY !!!!...:( they aren't gonna separate..i will not let them separate..will not will not ...








give me chance to repair back..give me chance to let you love me..we have been so long together...i don't really wanna let everything gone just like that...i'm still love you..that will never change...i really do... :(

last chance..i want to take care of you..i wanna help you in all ways..i wanna be beside you support you..i wanna go through with you all stuffs..i wanna love you..please...so sorry T_T

Loves..

What do you know about love?..

How do you define love?..

What is your opinion about love?..

How do you express your love to someone?..

For me, in my opinion, everyone needs love..or you love someone..

love your family, friends, teachers, someone that you respect, someone that in big trouble, someone that born disformed, and everyone will have in the future or now that is your match..

some people only love someone's outer look but for me the content inside is the most important..the kindness, the unique personalities, the honesty..n etc..

Why people judge a person by its cover? Attracted to ones outlook?..is that really important for you all?

One day when they grow old, their appearance for sure will change..and at that time how you want love him or her?..

Cares and worries..show the love..always ask how are they going on..how they feel..what is their problem and give helping hands..

someone who willing to sacrifice to you is the person who sincerely wanted to help..who really love you..who really want to be together with you till the end of our life..

Money is not that important..it can't really give what you actually want..yes it does but is items, objects..what if it disappears in a jiffy..

Advise for those parents out there, money for children doesn't give any happiness for them..you just making them to become more materialistic..big spender..

For couple..hmmm...is hard to say..depends on each individual, what the individual wants..sit down and discuss..when both sides agree, then work it out together..if is not, then think of alternative way..



LOVE..show to everyone in the Earth..cruelty doesn't give people happiness yet leave the scars in their heart..don't avoid them..approach them when they have problem..not discriminate them..

Tears

哭泣


昨天我始终压抑不住自己的情绪
眼泪不听话地滑下来 T.T
最后撑不住了
只能偷偷地躲在房间哭泣
久久都不能自己。
此时此刻的我变得多么地软弱
但是我可以说的是
在这件事里，我一点都没错
小器的人是你，计较的人是你。
为什么你的话，我一定要听?
我说的话就没人听?
你想吃什么，你一开口，我就会把食物让给你
我想吃什么，我一开口，你睬都不睬我。
你要去车站搭车，不管多早，6点早上我都是这样起来载你去车站
换着是我的话，你早就在房里呼呼大睡了。
为什么什么事情都是由我去做?难道你不能帮忙一下吗?
是不是因为我是女生，而你是男生，你就什么都不用做?
你说我很计较，就是你的错。
心里的不满只能往自己的肚子里吞。泪水也一样。

from http://realapplez.blogspot.com/2009/06/blog-post_19.html
this is one of the blogger from blogspot..i quoted it..
somehow it related to me..almost 85% of it..
i feel pity towards her..hope her bf treat her well..
i hope the thing goes to me as well..

INSECTS BITES !!

don't know why these few days at night there are lot of tiny bugs which bite people..

this are the results..of the bugs..which successfully bitten me ..

its like mosquito bites..but this is more itchy than that..some of it I scratched till bleed..its really really itchy..

hope soon it will gone..

Pa..Happy Father's Day

21st June 2009..Father's day..

Hereby I wish my dad..HaPpY FaThEr's DaY..

thx for giving me and guiding me since young till now..support me in all ways..

Pa..I'll never forget you..I'll study hard to be successful person and take care of you..i love you Pa..

DAM IT !!

DOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMM.....


I'm not allow return to KL...!!...why don't permit me to go back ??!! WHY !!!....

I'm going insane soon ..even only 2 days that is saturday and sunday in this prison !!...

HELP !!!...

WHY TREATING ME LIKE THAT...SOB!!

Penang trip with parents

Hi all..so long didn't blog already..finally found a day with free time to blog about last weekend..my parents came to visit me last friday..

so after my class on last friday, they fetched me out to Sg.Petani to stay there for one night..I didn't know why they don't want to bring me straight to Penang..we had our dinner around 6pm then went to The Stor to shop for awhile..after that went back to hotel and got early rest..

The next day morning, we started our journey around 930am..then reached Penang at 1030am..its been 13years plus didn't go to Penang..the last time I went was when I age 5..now Penang is totally different..perfectly developed..skyscrappers, factories, houses..so when reached there, we went to aunt's house..her house is still remain the same..nothing different..i still can remember very well how her house look like even i didn't been there for few years..

Then, we went out for lunch around 12pm..on the way to E&O..i saw a lot of historical places..for example the Francis Light house, the church, and more..hmmm..we had our lunch at Eastern & Oriental Hotel ( E&O )..it is the five star hotel..we had Hi-tea..so many delicious delicacies and beverages..i non-stop eating, even i already full i still can't stop haha..for so long being locked in this "prison uni" with those spicy and same food everyday..so whenever there's a chance to go out, sure eat very full before entering this prison again ..the hotel is pretty nice..it is a nice place..located at the border of Penang..means beside the sea..

Later on, we went to Snake Temple and Kek Lok Si where I miss that place so much..those places have not much different but the surrounding there now full of buildings like factories and more..the weather was super hot that time..sun blast on us..sweat all the way..even if there's an umbrella also no use..see some snakes, buy some souvenir, snap some picture then return..after visit those places, then we went to have the most famous chandul in Penang..and then went to my aunt's salon to have a hair cut..

At night, we went to hawker centre to have our dinner..everywhere is full of people..all family didn't cook on weekends..that's what my aunt told me..

Next day morning, Sunday, we had our breakfast at another well-known roti canai stall..located at the roadside..though it look not high class, the food is really wonderful and delicious..can't bear with it..addicted..then went to Komtar shopping..a long walk in there for few hours till 3pm plus..bought nothing but just washed our eyes..lots of nice clothes..but not affordable haha..

Before going back to Sg.Petani, we had our tea time at hawker stall also..ate the ice-kacang which advertised in Ho Chak before this..not bad..so I can conclude that we ate for 24 hours non-stop..stomach full with different types of food..beverages..haha..and now when i see food, i don't feel like eating anymore..hehe..

7pm..reached hostel..back to prison..days ended..miss my parents so much..

*end*

Blood Test !!

I have my lab experiment today..and it is the most fun for me because I didn't done it before..guess what..

is the BLOOD TEST !!..and I poke my own fingertip for the first time !!..muahaha

we did our own blood test by poking our own fingertip with a sharp teeth blade..

drop the blood drops on a slide..then add anti-A , anti-B and anti-Rh..

here are the picture..

this mine..I'm A+

My lab mates one..

enjoy~~..

I'm a failure..

I FAILED MY CHEMISTRY !!...

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE..

SO UNLUCKY TODAY..

HAIZZZ...