Mood swing..

I finished my class at 4pm.. my chemistry lecturer let us go off early because she don't have anything to teach.. so I went back to my hostel and took a bath.. I tried to take a nap at around 5pm but something was in my mind and it made me can't sleep..

Then, I received a call.. its from one of my friends and my friend name is start from K.. I didn't want to mention the name here so I will use the letter "K"...

During the chat, we were nicely talk and making jokes around each other.. just simply chat about something here and there.. then after we got bored, something bad happened..









We argue and quarrel.. this is really really bad.. I try to spend some time to chat with K because we didn't meet up so often plus I'm studying in other state.. wherever I go, my phone will always in my hands and sms with K.. my friends here always complaint about me.. they say I always sms with someone even though they talking to me or asking me to do something.. I know I'm a sms freaks but what can I do.. I can't lose contact with my old friends and others.. I didn't care about what my friends said.. I know what I'm doing and I know if I didn't get well with my friends here I wouldn't get any help from them in the future in my studies.. I manage to do all of this at some other time.. We have our own chatting session or doing things together.. I will not left out from part of them..

K complained that I keep sms and call and this will mess up my mind with studies.. this la that la.. although my parents are not here, there still someone mumbling in my ears.. sob.. when K call me that time, K was doing some other things that are not important..like online and others.. but me.. I was only concentrating on our conversation.. I was just lying on bed or sitting on the chair.. Yes, I am bored and nothing to do but when there are something to do I will still like that.. place the thing aside and chat with someone..later on I will continue my works.. now K is not.. K doing something else when we having conversation.. is quite often K did that..

I know K were busy all the time and I disturb K by calling or messaging.. but I did ask K whether that is a suitable time for me to call or not.. not just simply call without asking.. the problem is.. when we having our conversation, I felt like I'm talking to the wall.. K keep changing topic for nothing but K will bring the topic back again after K remember it again.. that's not the thing I want.. I am a person like finish something now ..without delaying it .. may be K didn't know that but who can I blame now .. my mood gone right after the arguement..

Plus.. there's a chain hanging on my phone actually.. and there's a diamond on it.. after the fought, I found the diamond lost !.. everything gone up side down after the arguement.. I can't really think a way to cope it now.. my happy, cheers, active mood are all gone now.. everything lost... I have no more idea about it ..

Probably is my fault.. I shouldn't have take it so seriously .. I mean contacting each other every moment.. both of us have to give some free time for each other.. I shouldn't have take away all K's free time.. anyway... my fault..my bad..for being so sensitive and all.. by the way.. I'm truly sorry..




People.. I'm not falling in love !!!!!!!... K is just my friend.. don ask so much ..haha.. we are just friends.. I'm just wanting a friend who can help me during my hard time when my best friend are not free..

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